Amma loved us very much....

“Who was my amma closest to from the 3 sisters? As in whom did she share her thoughts the most with?” All this coming from a daughter and a friend who was very close to her mom“Umm…well, no one. “
Well my mom was an extrovert; she didnt need blogging or secret diaries to vent out her feelings. She shared everything with my father. There were times when I used to get so frustrated that she couldnt or would not keep secrets, secrets which should remain safe between mothers and daughters.
I missed the connection, the sharing. There were times when I ignored her, and thought she doesn’t love me at all. I saw her crying during watching movies,serials and used to wonder how she could be so insensitive towards my feelings. I thought she never loved me, or any of us. I could never call her my best friend.
But time has made me realize that things are not always what they look like. She had to raise 3 daughters and a son which I agree was not an easy task.She had got lost in taking care of the family, in the daily routines, in the worries. Or maybe that was her way of expressing things was very different from what I would like it to be.
I can now feel the love now in the smallest of things she did.I know there is too much of her in me than I would ever liked to admit.
Something I have learnt…If she doesn’t love you the way you want her to, doesn’t mean she doesn’t love you at all. Better realise it now and not when she gone away from you...when i realised it...was too late....